Friday, November 5, 2010

i'm giggling like an idiot

but just on the inside though.
i have something to declare [not "say", i don't mean "say", because i don't want to just "say" this, i mean i really want to "DECLARE" this]:
God is Good.
this is a beautiful, magical week, and all the little things are going right. the big things seem to be following right along with them. all of the things in a nice little line, going right.
one of the big things is that i think my new medication might be working; [i'm trying really hard not to get my hopes up but] i have not felt so much like myself in 8 months.
all day i've been thinking about how it's like i left the house i grew up in on the first of april, and moved into an apartment down the street, one with no electricity and no windows, and this week for the first time since, i'm back in my home -- sleeping in my bed, eating meals in the living room and visiting with friends late into the night on the kitchen floor. i don't know how long it will last, or if i'll be "home" forever, but i'm loving it right now. i'm loving it like i love opening a brand new tube of toothpaste and using it before anyone.

i should also say this: God is still Good when things are not beautiful and magical. it's true.
and maybe i need to say it more often.

i also have a riddle for you to solve:
my left foot is right and my right foot is not.

solve.

11 comments:

Chantelle said...

I'm so glad for 3 things:

that you're giggling like an idiot
that your meds are working better
that you said God is Good even when things aren't magical.

April said...

Yay for your happy post and happy declaration! God is indeed good, when things are good and when things are not :) I'm glad for that.

kelly ann said...

mmmm mmm yes. god is without a doubt good, at all times, even when things aren't going great.

Jessica Lynn said...

I DO THE SAME THING WITH BUTTER. Haha I get a tub of some yogurt butter or peanut butter and lovee to use it before anyone else. If my mom opens one, she always gives it to me to stick my finger in...

and I'm going to be 19 freaking years old.
hahahah

Zack said...

Amen to that!

I've been trying to figure out your riddle, but I can only think you are doing some sort of dance or something...

JTay said...

This whole post made my heart say "YES!"

suzy said...

:D thanks guys.

jessica, you are hilarious. :)

and zack, i will tell you. not right now, but sometime today.

Jessica Lynn said...

I think you're pretty gosh darn awesome too :P
I'm so happy you're feeling better now!

bebe bird beck said...

Yay! God is so good! I'm glad things are going so well! And so beautiful that God is still good even when things aren't so magical. sweet.

Holly Knitlightly said...

I wish I could figure out your riddle, but I can't. Hmm...

I'm so glad you found some medication that is working for you. I've been struggling for over 3 years to find the right kind, ugh. I hope one day I will.. They just keep upping the dosage and adding on new kinds. So frustrating.

suzy said...

jessica: THANKS! :)

bebe bird beck: amen, sister.

holly knitlightly: i plumb forgot about the riddle. i'll answer it sometime this week.
and i'm sorry you can't find medication--it's such a hard road hey? i hope soon you do...