Wednesday, September 29, 2010

sticky thoughts

today is a thinking day.
in a good way, though. some people, when they say, 'i've got a lot on my mind' don't mean it in a good way, but i do--i mean it in a very good way. like, maybe those people feel like they have a bowl of centipedes on their mind, but i feel like i have some rolo ice cream up there. it's like that.
hm.
a better metaphor: today my head feels more tall than wide because it is piling up with a single row of neatly-stacked ideas and thoughts, scribbled with a blue ballpoint pen on yellow post-its.
some of the metaphorical notes say nice things like, "it's a good day to go for a walk after work," and others say frustrating things like, "you've forgotten something important, i'm pretty sure," and some of the notes have plans or pictures or stories and there's the odd blank one. [is that normal?]
 
but most of the notes have the same few words on them, traced over and over a hundred times so hard that they've indented the papers beneath them. these ones were written last night at 2 am by my tired yet overactive brain and i don't really know what to do with them yet.
i rifle through my sticky-notes and, 5 out of 6 times, come up with one of these.
and i smile and put it back, leave it for later, draw it out again, put it back.

i can't tell you what it says though.
because that is a secret for now.

19 comments:

Allie said...

ahhh the privacy of thinking.. you gotta love it! i love your stickie note analogy =)

kiersten said...

now. just WHAT is that supposed to mean? Seriously. Leave me in suspense like that. Sheesh.

kelly ann said...

best analogy of life, because i totally relate. the sticky notes in my mind are kind of out of control right now! eeep.

Jessica Lynn said...

I made a new blog!! Now you'll have more to readd :D As long as you follow :D

Amyschmamey said...

Well, hopefully you will spill sooner or later what these neatly piled thoughts are. :) ha. Great post... AS ALWAYS! You are a consistently great blogger. I am jealous of your mad blogging skills. ha. :)

Allie Garcia said...

really suzy? really???? who does that? haha. everytime someone posts something like that i think they are pregnant. just saying.

Jillian said...

catching up on my blog reading, and I can't wait to hear what the secret is :)

suzy said...

allie: thanks! :)
kiersten: i'll see you soon, right? we should talk soon.
kelly ann: what're a couple of paper heads like us supposed to do with ourselves??
jessica: sweet pete! but where'd your other one go?
amy: i probably definitely will. i'm all fizzy with excitement.
allie: i'm sorry. i'll give you a hint: there is nothing growing inside of me. unless it's like a third lung or something. ps: where have you BEEN??? i've been looking everywhere for you!
jillian: heehee, yay!

JTay said...

I will put aside the fact the the suspense is getting to me and say that I can totally relate. And on Wednesdays especially the sticky notes in my brain and the ones on my desk are in the same state of complete disarray.

an9e1a said...

Now I'll never get to sleep.. ;)

ching said...

your thoughts are yours to keep. secrets are fun!

lrs said...

i wish my thoughts were in neatly stacked rows... lately mine have been a compendium of scattered, ragged, rain-soaked post-its - and those aren't very easy to read!

<3

Jessica Lynn said...

Haha, well it wasn't very good and I wanted to redo it so it was all nice and "not complainyy" hahaha

suzy said...

justine, angela, i'm sorry. some time i'll tell ya. some time.
ching: indeed! i love them...
irs: oh...that's no good! you need waterproof sticky notes. or maybe a laptop computer instead! haha.
jessica: i never thought it was complainy. i liked it--looking forward to this one! :D

FIL said...

People who say they don't have anything growing inside them, but have a big secret they won't tell ALWAYS have something growing inside them.... Pffftttt.... You can't fool me FIL.

Holly Knitlightly said...

This post created such an awesome and interesting image. What a great way to explain how you're feeling. Seriously.

suzy said...

FIL: well i don't. it's a different sort of secret, and you. can't. know it.
i'm sticking my tongue out at you the next time i see you. it's happening.

danny.elle. said...

can I know?

suzy said...

mmm...yes. soon. :D